Do I really have to do this right now? So much has changed in the past year. My morals, my inspirations, and dreams. Ten times over, how am I to know where I wil be? How am I to have even the slightest idea? If high school has taught me anything, it is that nothing and no one can be really, permenantly counted on. Everyone will screw you over eventually. Friends change their minds, and pinky promises don't count anymore. Kisses aren't contracts, I know now. Even the bond between parent and child can be torn with enough jarring. You can't trust people, and you certainly can't trust yourself. We are in a constant state of flux. Even so, idealism holds true. We all want to believe we really can change something. Maybe, by upholding this one promise, everything, or at least some little part of everything, will stay the same, will be ok. But you change your mind, because Machiavelli has more power than we mere mortals. The good of the state is the supreme good, and whatever we want right now is the good of the state, your own state. The end justifes the means to the end, and if the means is lying, cheating, doing drugs, and hurting the ones you "love", well then, so be it. It's ok though, becuase parents are always right, right? We're taught that from a young age, that yolu should do what your mommy tells you simply becuase she is your mommy. But you grow up and realizre mommy isn't God. Now, what would be easier is if not being God = Satan. If anyone who had fucked you over was automatically evil, heaven would be empty. But it doesn't work that way. Nor should it, really. There's no reason it should. Physics has gray areas and so does human morality. She make fuck up, but that doesn't make her evil. How much can one tolerate before one has to go? Do the positives cancel out the negatives, or are they unlike terms?